Psikosomatis

Rencana keberangkatan saya ke luar negeri semakin mendekati due date. Alhamdulillah visa suami sudah kelar, tinggal visa saya yang belum. Tiket pun hari ini siap di issued. I supposed to be excited, this will be my first trip to europe. Tetapi apakah yang terjadi....

I got my first asthma attack for this last 5 years! disaster..

I thought it's not gonna be this hard. Leaving my son, athazka for 10 days feels so terrible. I may look strong outside, but my heart can't lie. I'm gonna miss him so bad..

Payah pisaaannn..

Looking at the itenerary, wow, we will visit Amsterdam, Brussels, Paris and Rome. Yes, I know i'm just so lucky to have such trip with my husband. But why my heart feels so empty?

I think I shuold start to hypnotize my self.. everything is gonna be ok.. everything is gonna be ok.. inhale.. exhale.. inhale.. exhale..

*sorry lebay*